And God said...

I have really been struggling this week with my tears. They keep coming. Someone will say something and tears flow. It feels as if the sadness, fear, all those scary emotions are sitting on top of my skin, open to being infected, wounded, rubbed raw!

My very good friend told me that I am in the process of developing thicker skin. The process is painful, involves being vulnerable and open to pain. God says, "That is OK, I am healing you. I am here to help you. You are doing my work in raising awareness about the needs of those with disabilities and those that love them. KEEP GOING AND CALL ON ME WHEN IT IS HARD."

So.......... I keep seeking God here on earth, those that offer encouragement, a shoulder to cry on, and new solutions to try. I keep falling on my knees and ask my God to help me. Then I remember it takes only the faith of a mustard seed, that is all the strength you need, to do the work of God.

This morning I participated in a conversation with God and here is what he said to me:

1. You have opened the door. You have helped spread my message but they are not ready to hear it. Pray for them.

2. Being my disciple is difficult and people may not listen NOW. Be patient, let me work on them and move on. If you spend too much time on those that are not ready you won't have time to find those that are.

3. Continue to ask for help. I want you to ask the difficult questions but be sure you are asking them of the right people. Ask me and I will tell you.

4. It's OK to cry, all my disciples do. I am here, I am helping you. Sometimes my people are hard of heart and they can hurt you. Remember, you have hurt others too. Make amends if you need to.

5. You are not wrong, bad, or inadequate. You are strong, loved and doing good work.

6. I AM THERE/HERE wherever you are. You are finding your way, you don't have to feel alone. My people are already in place to help you. Keep asking and pay attention so you don't miss them. I am helping you find them. PAY ATTENTION!

7. Please give those that are helping you a message for me, "You too are doing my work. Thank you and don't stop." They get scared too and need to hear my voice through you.

8. Be kind, be patient, be tolerant, and most of all be loving.

9. You have courage, don't be afraid to use it for me OK? Why don't you read the stories of my other disciples that came before you, Matthew might be a good place to start.

Finally:

10 I need you to help my people... DON'T STOP!

In keeping with #7, GOD AND I SAY THANK YOU for the support you give me each time you read my blog...